I am Cool

I saw that I have lots of Entrecard credits on my EC account. I decided to randomly (I really do not want to use this word since I noticed that it is one of the most used words in the world of blogging together with rave, rants, ramblings and all adjectives that start with the letter R. Is it a coincidence that they all start with the letter R?) purchased ads on different famous blogs.

Some of the ads I purchased was accepted but some were turned down. It was okay for me if they rejected the ads I purchased.I have been turned down a lot of times but there is this one instance when the owner of the blog sent me a message telling me that she feels terrible for not accepting my blog because she is not comfortable for my blog to be featured in her site. She is very apologetic since she only turned down a small number of bloggers before. And now, I belong to those small crowd.

My first reaction to it was, "What?". It is completely all right for me to be rejected but it made me ponder on what was wrong with my blogsite.
1. Was it my header photo? Actually, Inside those twins there are my brains. I cannot place my face on my blog because I write sensitive issues at times and I want to protect the people I love. And besides, I like my header. It is unique.
2. Oh, yeah! Maybe the sensitive issues I wrote? The sex stories? I stopped writing this type of stories since it needs lots of imagination.
3. Maybe due to the fact that my blog category is different from hers? Honestly, I do not know what my blog category is. I just write whatever I want to share.

Whatever my blog is, this is me. Like everyone else. We are what our blog is. She is not comfortable with my blog? That means she is not comfortable with me. I pour my heart and soul into my site. This is me. This is the true me. You may accept me or not, but this is the real me. It is hard to please people and it is good I stopped pleasing them, for if I still do, I would be heartbroken.

It is okay to be rejected. I am cool.